Magician

Early memories vanish

like a magic trick

what happened to the strong man

who was suppose to always be there 

abandoned quicker than abra 

be nice if i ever meant something

if you could ever remember your kids

no rabbits in the hat exist

just like the days we were born

married with kids

dont mean shit

forgot in the blink of an eye....lid

close the bin empty the trash

forget about a so called dad

you were meant to protect me 

look after me

maybe even just care about me

instead i dont mean a thing

its ok ive learnt to except it

just try telling a 4 yr old her dad dont want to know

understand them cracks can never be filled

constantly tormented by the lack of the one

who was suppose to be the one to me 

act like i mattered even just a bit

instead you forgot my existence

selective ignorance to your own kids

get married and start a family

only to torture them with being

our little hearts torn apart 

stabbing me in the heart with a stake

by the mere mention of your name 

and the way most dads cared

and you dont even remember

who we are

adoption would of been a better option 

then abandonment and neglect

maybe just once you could of acted

like you cared just a little bit

i was suppose to be daddys little girl 

until you vanished from my world

showed me what to expect in turn

no man could ever really love me 

neglected, rejected,  waiting to be fixed 

can anyone really heal from it 

abandoned in a ditch

left my heart

 extinct