I dont want it to be over
No matter what people will say
It was hard enough the first day
If i could turn back the hands of time
The clock would be stuck
Leaving us on repeat
Constantly living in those moments
When it all was all too good to be true
Break the hour glass
And take me back to the past
We would never of said good bye
Even though i know its best for me
The incessant stabbing of my heart
Made it bleed more
Than
Humanly
Possible
For anyone to continually
Live through
hurts more than any lyrics
or poem
Could even really begin
To express
Writing this is the hardest pen
Bulldozed my walls
And stole my soul
Like a python
Engulfed me whole
Restricted
Common sense
Brain, vacant
Heart manning the station
I don't even hate you
Like i probably should do
I hate that i still love you
The truth is my heart still belongs to you
I can barely breath
Whilst writing these things
Breaking my heart once again
Shattered pieces
Like the last scene
I just want you in my life
Ignore reality
and live in a fantasy
But i cant be that naive
Trying to remind myself of why we came not to be
Already spent time to find me once more
Stitched my heart back together again
Seeping through my wounds
Is my pure love for you
These scars cant heal
If we won't let them
Heart was never for sale
But you stole it anyway
Instantly
You had me
Oxygen stealing, heartbeat thief
We were meant to be for an eternity
How can your heart bleed
When theres nothing left to see
I gave you everything
Now im just a shell of the former me
Feeling incomplete
Apparently this is best for me
When i could drown in my own tears
Float on a sea of loneliness
Maybe thats why i cant see
Blurred vision
Fucking with my perception
Of reality
Conflicted situation
This love is tainted
As much we try to deny it
We both know it
Tried to blank it from my memory
The last time we were complete
We knew it was going to be a long time
Never predicted
it would be the last good bye
Running back from the taxi
for the third time
Just so you could kiss me again
Meant more than anything
Neither of us wanted that moment to end
the last time our lips met
Tears streaming
We both felt it
We never knew
The ways things would of went
You had to turn yourself in
Shouting i love you
As they took you away
My world fell apart that day
Heartbeat in prison
Locked away from them feelings
I didn't mean the harsh things i said
Had to say it to break them chains
Everytime i hurt you
It hurt me just the same
Tried to hold on for so long
Knowing even then
We could never continue
To be
Now you're back in my life
Im so confused
No one else checks on me like you do
Just a text
and im back to skipping heartbeats
Cant see anybody else ever making me feel like this
Probably why its so hard to shake this pain
Id mix every paint
to colour you in a brighter shade
Building sandcastles of yesterday
Only to be washed away in the next wave
Keeping me holding on
For the sunshine
a better outcome
Knowing deep down
There can never be one
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