Conflicted Situation

Just a text 

And you got me again

A thread 

We cant ignore

A bond we never left

Despite the curses

And harsh sentences

We both know 

Why i did it 

Stabbed myself in the heart again

Trying to maintain

the thread that kept us holding on

Never losing sight of that bond

Probably why i became blind

To see the actual reality

Blinkers on

Naive fantasies

Crushed dreams

Echoing the breaking of my heart

By you

Is the only place

I feel complete

Why did you have to ring me 

Instantly

Taking me back

To a place where we use to be

Reset my heart beat

Put me on a cloud

When you declared your love 

Still all for me 

Heart started and stopped at my feet

Pulled the rug beneath

Exposed scenes

Cobwebs seen

Different roads 

Ahead

Completely

Separately

I've prayed for another way

Any other way

I'd do anything to change this scene

Pluck every strand of grass

One by one

Separate the sea

Each tear drop at a time

Anything to disguise

The way our love really was

Toxic situation

Conflicted reality

Poisonous promises

Multiplied by that real love feeling

Automatically

From the beginning

We were purely

Madly

Truly

Not really

Meant to be

Yet youre still the only one for me

Had me, stole me,

Fooled me

into believing this love story

My Mr Wrong

I've wished upon every star 

To re write our love story

Filled the clouds with tears

To rewind history

Dreamt on every moon

to change this crazy love for you

Would swap my womb

to be with you

A kidney you need

I got two 

Take both of mine

Nothing can repair this time

the roads we tred

The things we said

And the moment 

You crossed the line

The first time

A blind eye

Could have been a black eye

Regardless of what you believe

the world put you in chains

And I stood strong

Rebuilt my walls once again

Now you're back 

Hearing your voice

And I’m instantly confused

Trying to fix a puzzle

With pieces

That don’t include me and you

The sound of you saying my name

Like the birds in the morning

The sweetest song ever sang

No one else says it the same

Took me back

Without a doubt

Filled my heart

Hearing how you felt

Needing to remember

How it felt

Literally

Physically

Always to quick

To excuse you

Blamed it on me

Somebody

Anybody

To change the narrative

Deleted scenes

Now

I have more to give

And even more to loose

I've decided

I cant choose you 

Despite the heartbreak i feel

Ongoing like a waterfall

Never-ending

This empty place

Will always fit your name

My heart beat will always

Sing to the same hymn

Always beat right next to yours

But the blinkers are off

You and me 

Can never be 

My heart can never love again

Forever stuck

Daydreaming of a different memory

No song could reach that note

No lyrics could ever sing

No poem could even begin

to describe the feeling

the thread

that’s kept us

Despite our love

We have to be done

Going against every fibre of my being

Dying

Literally

Killing me

Trying to breath without you

The only way I know how to

They all look the same

When my eyes are closed

And your touch is all im thinking of

They’ll never come close

How else can I break us

Forget the past

Move on from broken pieces

The scent of another man

Can never match what we had

Probably hurts me more than it does you

The only way I can attempt to move on

Break the bond

Shattered heart

Drowning above sea

Scars for both

Plain to see

In Another lifetime

I could send you a lifeline

Lost at sea

Forget the memories

Erase you from my history

Mourn the day we met

Destroy the plans we made

Untangle our hearts

Cancelled love

Lost contact