Like a tsunami the emotions engulf me
wave over me and sweep me off my feet
Why cant i leave you behind?
Always there, running through the maze in my mind
They say time is a healer
Yet everyday is a constant reminder
Testing, stressing, messing with my brain
You already took my soul
Left a man shaped hole
Forever seeking searching to be whole
The breaking of my heart left its mark
Scarred with the shape of you
I see you in everything i do
No amount of alcohol can escape you
Ive emptied every bottle trying to avoid the truth
By now you should just be a distant memory
Yet your face still torments my dreams
Or is it nightmares that haunt me
Wide awake, fast asleep
You are all i see
Continually trapped in the memories
Rose tinted glasses cant change this scene
I'd love to paint a rainbow over that day
Fantasises, unrealistic visions of what should be
could be , would be
All the things we wanted it to be
Only to be hit in the face with reality , literally
Suffocating our dreams
like the first time you put your hands on me
Instantly vanishing the man i thought i'd seen
Erasing everything i believed in previously
A trick to draw me in
I played my cards
Queen of hearts, on my sleeve
no doubt pure love for everyone to see
No joke no bluff
You always had my love
But my heart was never enough
The world tore us apart
Put you behind bars
we tried to make it work
but we needed to fix our own hurt
And God had other plans
That didnt include me and you
Just you and me completely separately
I listened to the signals and took my cue
spewed that venom, deliberately
just to hurt you
Otherwise id still be by your side
wondering why i wasted my life
Despite the cracks in my heart
i had to be brutal for us to part
Broke the bond to distance us
I never chose this love
Who would choose a broken heart
In time this will just be another of lifes lessons
or is it a blessing, a memory
and youll just be another
stranger to me
Walk past me in the street
Act like we never met that day
Erase history
and restore my wall again
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