Asking me why
Is like
Asking me to count the clouds
On a stormy night
Or separate the grains of sand
In the hour glass
Of my life
If i knew the answer
I would change the question
This hell
Is no life anyone
Chooses to be in
Them demons stalk me
Around the clock
Non stop
Constantly tortured
Like im paying for a crime
In a previous life
Death after death
On repeat
Caught up with me
To remind me im not worthy
To waste this skin
Or breath oxygen
Battling a war
I can never really win
Its hard to explain
When the walls close in
And you cant breath
Waking up is like
Staying asleep through a nightmare
Screaming with no sound
Breathing with no air
You would want to escape too
All alone
Each second feels like a year
How can i stay here
Suffocating with lungs full of oxygen
Blind on the brightest of days
Unable to hear the clearest sounds
Now how appetising
Are them pills?
Classed as the easy way out
Clearly from people who have never been there
Or simply have no idea
Can you continue to live
When every breath inhaled
Draws Dark memories from hell
Every tick of the clock
Reminds you of all the time lost
Stolen is the right word
As i know who took those moments
Tainted by what they did
Casted by the shadows
Of the most evilest
Vile human beings
Able to walk on the planet
Get over it
That was years ago
I know how the story goes
Now repeat these lyrics
Super fast just for 2 minutes
Scrambled head
A place you want to dwell in?
Didnt think so
Me either
But
This is my life
Constantly
Thats why sometimes
Them pills seem like the right thing
Luckily i know god has bigger plans
And ive seen the other side of the coin
When you dont succeed
Somethings become more clear to see
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