That Day

Each year you haunt my dreams 

Far worse than all the other days in between 

That day that marks the moment 

My adulthood was stolen

I hate the word anniversary 

this is not a dear memory to me 

Just a day that forever changed me 

Praying in time this day will be a long gone memory 

But what you did can never leave me 

I hate you with every fibre of my being 

Sometimes i wish i didnt exist 

In reality its you who should cease to live

You are beyond disgusting

the shit left by termites serves more purpose

Repugnant cunts like you are worthless

Like vampires stripping us of our desires

You made me hide from fear

Fear of seeing your grotesque face again 

Fear of you seeing me and me being unaware

Fear of allowing you to have glimpses of what you did

Revelling in your cowardice

And torturing my soul again 

You didnt just take that night 

You ruined years of my life 

Unable to regain that time again 

See its not just that day 

that my life was stripped away

violated repeatedly

like the torture of the memories

suffocated by what you did to me 

strangled the essence out of my being

Stole my adulthood, took the old me away

left me unable to breath properly 

no amount of air could fill these lungs

No amount of alcohol or drugs

Can blank it out

Marked for life

You should of left me for dead

Instead of the constant repeat

Of what you did to me  

See you again next year 

Waiting to sap my soul again 

The constant torture remains

Each and every day

But nothing compares to 

That Day